Fuck up feelings ..

I told myself to give up on you ever  since you broke with me . But couldn't  .. I still really like you .. I have been waiting for you to come back .. Always waiting .. But that day that time I was on Facebook and your relationship status just pop up and saying that you are in a relationship with minmin . I Felt really hurt . What can I do ? Nothing . I wanted to confess . But no . I am irritating  . Very irritating .. So I don't dare to confess . In addition , I am a girl . I don't want to be named under the fucking bhb category .. Moreover , maybe I am  friendzoned . Maybe you hate me . You don't like me anymore . Not even a bit . So , I decided to wait for you patiently . Hahahah . Who knows , you got yourself a girlf . I tried so hard to give up on you . I couldn't . I just couldn't . So for now I will just pretend that I never like you . I don't have a single bit of feelings for you . Scarly when I pretend half way through , I might really don't care anymore .. ? Who knows .. That time you told me not to give up .. I tried even harder to woo you back .. But , never mind .. Maybe we are over .. You are not mine anymore and i cannot call you mine .. Never again .. I will leave your relationship with her alone and won't make you feel bad with my feelings .. We , are just normal bestfriends .. :-) I once thought about confessing to you .. I am afraid of the rejection .. I couldn't sleep well and have been sleeping really late after we broke up .. Kept thinking about the us in the past .. I couldn't believe that you said you got no feelings for me .. To me , we were really fine at that time .. You suddenly scold me badly and painful .. Ouch .. Or maybe I didn't realise I made a mistake .. But I would still want to know the truth .. Honestly .. Forget it .. Last long , Jiayous bestpen . :-) From you bestink . Always there for you . :-)